Four Image Series

This series was a personal project I wanted to do to explore putting emotions into artwork rather than worrying about perfection. At the age of 14 I was placed into immediate foster care and was dealing with the loss of a family member at the same time. With each home I moved to during the process, I was in a very different mental state.

This piece was drawn from imagination since the first home I was placed into is a blur in my memory. I remember not wanting to eat or do anything but lay on the couch they had in the basement. I remember the dogs they had there were very sweet and comforting and made me feel a little better. Besides that, I spent most of the time at that house watching tv.

Shortly after that, I was placed into another foster home for a longer period of time. This home was an hour from the school I was attending at that time, and I was still trying to process the state that my life was in at the time. As a teenager just starting high school, I felt very confused and very out of place.

After a long time of being depressed, I experienced my first manic episode during quarantine. I delved into every interest that I could have to fill my time: makeup, film photography, gaming, cosplay, fashion, technology, but it all didn’t keep me from feeling extremely isolated and unstable. I also had moved into another house by this time and was struggling to feel accepted in this home.

Eventually I moved into my own home. Around this time I was diagnosed with epilepsy and was trying very hard to take care of myself as well as my surroundings. I felt like I had finally started gaining some sense of stability and control over my life.